October Nine

I thought my day was fine
Until I heard my phone chime
I went up to the nine
It was October Nine

When you dropped the line
You were no longer mine
I wanted to drink some wine
It was October Nine

That night, alone I dine
I count from zero to nine
I sleep, I cry, I whine
It was October Nine

Who?

Who am I going to miss, if you were never there?
Who I am going to love, if nobody did care?
What am I going to risk, if no one ever dared?
What am I to do, if everyone was scared?

Of the things I have done
Of the uncertain future that I bring
Of the man I was and am now
Of the man that I want to be

Who are you to say that I never dreamed?
Who are you to judge that I have not believed?
What is it in me that I did not possess?
What is it in me did I have less?

All I have left is faith
To the one that is willing to wait
For the man I was and am now
For the man that I want to be

Stings

Kiss, kiss, kiss
Did you just see?
I think Cupid’s arrow
Just missed me.

Kiss, kiss, kiss
Look over there
Whose lips are those
I began to stare?

Kiss, kiss, kiss
Give it to me, honey
A slap in the face
Stinging like a bee.

K.O.

“Stand up and fight,”
My heart cried
Ignore the pain
And wound on your side.

Clear your thoughts
Of any doubt
And wipe the blood
Off your mouth.

“Stand up and fight,”
My spirit shouted
Let all your fear
And hate be diverted.

Into a weapon
As sharp as a blade
That will cut life
Instantly without fade.

“Stand up and fight,”
My soul screamed
The battle is not over,
Or so it seemed

One more minute
And twelve more rounds
A one-way ticket to pain
Is where I am bound.

I'm Cheap

Offer me a smile
Offer me a pack
That’s all it takes
To pay me back

When I get lost
Put me on track
That’s all it takes
To pay me back

Call my name
Call me back
That’s all it takes
To pay me back

The Road We Take

The life I have chosen
The path I have taken
Is an endless road that leads
To a place I have never been to

Where I go is my business
And where it leads me
No one may ever know
Not even the shadow
That walks with me

And in these travels
I must admit that
At one point I have
Stayed too long
Only to remember
That I must walk again
To a place I have never been to

Sooner or later
There will be a place
Where I am welcome
Where I want to stay

But until that time comes
I wander and walk the road
Alone with just my shadow
Following my every footstep
To a place I have never been to

The Story of I

A girl born under the loving embrace
of stars gleaming upon Venus' face.
Four glowing sparks across the sky
To ward off the darkness goodbye.

With a smile to taunt the sun's own rays
and her affectionate eyes' piercing gaze,
a timepiece's second hand could die.
This is the story of I.

Zzzzz

Zad Zam
zinging zongz
of zadnezz
zinze zunday

zoon zhe
zang with Zam
zinging zongz
of zadnezz
zinze zaturday

zo zad Zam zed

Zip it
Zip it
Zip it

Zip up your lip
and let me enter
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Zoon zad Zam
feel into zlumberzzzzz.

Speak of Death

"I am the antithesis of your existence,
the act of mercy of the brave
and the way of the coward.

I am the salvation of the unjust,
the comforter of the unborn
and the harvester of the greedy.

I am the destiny of all that is,
the fate of the hopeless
and the reward of a fulfillment.

I am the warmth of sleepless nights,
the wrath of heaven
and the cold steel of deception.

I am the embrace of broken hearts,
the logic of mindless slaughter
and the reason for life.

I am the nameless fear of the arrogant,
the unspoken fate of the lonely
and the unknown end of eternity.

I am the silence of pain,
the surrender of agony
and the blinding light at the end of the tunnel.

I am the poison in your coffee,
the nicotine that you smoke
and the virus in your system.

I am the word that makes you bitter,
the lie that you discover
and the truth that hurts.

I am the car you never saw,
the warning sign you never noticed
and the sanctuary you took for granted.

I am the stray bullet you fired,
the firecracker you lighted
and the one you picked up the day after.

I am the firing mechanism of a gun,
the second hand of a homemade bomb
and the solution to peace.

I am the weapon of destruction,
the tool of creation
and the end of this statement.”

“Who am I you ask? If I told you, I’d have to kill you.”

Insomnia

One hour to go before midnight
A comfortable bed is a wonderful sight
With folded sheets and pillow cases to match
I’ve got a lot of zzzzzs to catch.

One hour to go before it’s two
My mind has still so much to do
I pray to God I’d get some sleep
Before the light of dawn can creep.

Just then I realized my folly
I had taken too much coffee
So here I go waiting for the sun
Wish I stayed longer and had more fun.

One hour to go before eight
Jesus, Mary and Joseph -- I’m going be late
Without thinking, here I am again
Smoking a cigarette and drinking caffeine.

Dying Words

This face I wear everyday
Will soon grow old and wither
And I will have nothing to show
Not a smile to give to the lonely.

The temple that is my body
Will become brittle and worthless
And I will have nothing to spare
Not even a shoulder to cry on.

The voice that carries my soul
Will falter and lose its song
And will have nothing to speak with
No comfort for the restless.

The soul that I was provided with
Will be taken by away
And I will have nothing at all
No hope nor faith for others to believe.

All I have are thoughts and words
And a name to confirm any doubts
That any man, woman or child
May remember it for a thousand years.

And keep it in their hearts
Giving compassion to the lonely
Giving strength to the weak
Giving peace to the disheartened
Faith and hope for the fallen.

My words spoken from one to another
My thoughts read to inspire a follower
This is all what I have to give
This is all I need to live.

For the One who has It All

All eyes turn towards you
Begging for your attention
One by one, they heed your call
Envy for the one who has it all.

You cast a spell of enchantment
With just a smile from your lips
And soon enough they, too, will fall
Love for the one who has it all.

Amidst all the chaos and confusion
Of waking dreams and surreal illusions
There you stand proud and tall
Desire for the one who has it all.

Hoping that all of this was for real
But I woke up screaming in the night
And this was all I could recall
Admiration for the one who has it all.

Escape

I find myself
In a room full of lidless eyes
Staring at my naked soul
Stripping me of all my will
And strength

I run away mindless
Not knowing where to go
Finding darkness
An alternative prison
From the warden
And nightmares guarding
My every waking moment

I live each day, thereafter
In fear, in torment
Praying that I may find
A way out of this shapeless fear
Called insanity.

When I go blind

Brilliant colors of red, yellow and blue
Different shades and different hues
Will I cease to see, I don’t mind
When I go blind.

The formation of clouds in the sky
The glorious sun that never dies
Will I cease to see, I don’t mind
When I go blind.

The widest of flowing rivers
The vastness of the open sea
Will I cease to see, I don’t mind
When I go blind.

The faces of the people I know
The frown and the smiles they show
Will I cease to see, I don’t mind
When I go blind.

The fear and hatred they have for me
All their lies and false naiveté
Will I cease to see, I don’t mind
When I go blind.

Yet the truth in their hearts I can see
Whatever they do, wherever they flee
Everything will be so clear, I don’t mind
When I go blind.

Deathbed

Lost in the maze of confusion
My head swirling in a pool of chaos
A tiny spark of hope is all I see
In a cave of shadows
Cast by my own doubts

Darkness
As far as the eye can see
Slave to the blindness
That I’ve brought upon myself
Tortured by the fear inside my head
Blood coming out of my eyes
Like tears falling on my grave
When at last I accept my fate
And let the coldness of death embrace me
I pray

Pray to the angel of death to take me silently
Pray to the angel at my side to comfort me
Pray to the angel who has fallen to spare me

And from the darkness I rise
Light slowly creeping
Through the lids of my eyes
And the screaming bells
That brought me alarming news
That it’s 6 in morning.

Invisibility

Away from those prying eyes
Away from those spying ears
Away from those gossiping mouths

I thought I had found a way

But your bewildering eyes caught me,
Your taunting lips teased me
And your innocent soul called out to me
I thought I had invisibility.

Anything

I’d give anything to see you smile
Hiding beneath the face of a sorrowful soul
I’d give even more to make you laugh.

I’d give anything to hear your voice
Imagine the sound of a thousand bells in harmony
I’d give even more to make you talk to me.

I’d give anything to see the stars in your eyes
A glance, a peek, a vision so radiant
I’d give even more to make you look in mine.

I’d give anything to make you feel
To know the warmth and the joy of living
I’d give even more to feel it myself.

But the distance between us is much too far
Too far to see, too far to hear, too far to feel
And I’d give even more just to know
How far I have to go, how close I can get
To know, to feel, to see for myself.

Gravity

Asteroids fall from the sky
Apples fall from their branches
And leaves from trees
Why haven’t you fallen for me?

Temperatures fall from hot to cold
The night falls unexpectedly
And the blanket of stars touch the sea
Why haven’t you fallen for me?

2 o'clock

It’s 2 o’ clock
And I’m dying
For a drink
Two shots
Is all I need
To make me tipsy
Two more
To make me drunk
Two more
To make me think
About why
It’s still
2 o’ clock
And still waiting
For someone
To call me back.

A funny thing happened on my way ...

A few more steps further
To a coffee shop at the corner
But I think I lost my way
When you smiled at me today

Fever

A hard battle I had fought
I tried my best not to fall
I tried my best not to falter
I tried my best to avoid
The fever I had caught.

Around You

I walk the path of sleepless nights
Dreaming to be your only moon
I felt uneasy at the thought
Of this state of uncertainty.

I have allowed myself to fall
Into the comforts of your sphere
But thrown back into outer space
Unmindful of the gravity.

Though I drift away from the pull
Of unknown magnetic forces
The fond embrace of affection
Invites me to intimacy.

Here I go around and around
In the path of wayward cycles
Neither moving from nor towards
Across the vast infinity.

Over You

I have walked for hours
Without any rest nor pause
With no mission and cause

I have stayed long nights
Doing nothing and everything
Singing songs without an ending

I have spoken to myself
In front of mirrors and cages
For what felt like ages

I have driven myself to oblivion
Passing red lights blinking
Fuel tank’s quickly emptying

Running away from the thought
Trying to forget what you said
When my heart stopped dead